I made a conscious decision while starting this space (which primarily features my writing) that I would limit my diary-related posts to the other blog. But this is important so finally I am publishing it here.
April 3, 2010 – My Muslim Philosophy course and its more than two year journey almost ended; only action research left. No one felt as if it is the last class. There wasn’t happiness or sadness, just a plain calmness or say numbness.
I will never learn time management I guess. All I want to do is write and write more. Not lengthy or overdone piece but write everything which is relevant and important. Viva went such that I can’t judge about the outcome but honestly, I don’t care because the experience was great. It revolved around the notion of Art and Mystical Experience. I was asked questions out of my own responses and I kept on repeating my words if not instances; this has helped me to analyze my ideas more and thanks to discussion with my friends after exam through whom I learned that how can I communicate myself better. Moreover I can now related to the major idea of our last course (Mysticism), you can express your experiences but it is difficult to rip them off to an objective description.
April 11, 2010 [Night] – I have been sleeping all day. I am missing my classes like anything. Want to thank all the people involved in the program; it has given us so much. I will remain indebted always.
April 12, 2010 [Morning] – I am working on four urgent projects simultaneously and believe me it is no fun if you are feeling sleepy.
April 12, 2010 [Night] – I have to take a session on photo-essays for M.Ed social studies class at AKU-IED. The place where I have also applied for the same program this year. Amusement of sorts. Frankly speaking, I am scared whether I would make sense or not. I am loving the experience of flipping Nukta Art Magazine’s pages and cherishing the visual delight of Boston.com/BigPicture while giving final touches to my own photo-essays.
April 13, 2010 – What a great experience it was. I am honored to be given a chance to present at such prestigious university. Dr Datoo was so encouraging and such a sport. Man vs Nature photo-essay was a highlight of the session; surely holds dear to me as it was introspective and engaging to shoot it last year on Independence Day (the morning after my birthday) and I also loved how the captures had came out. Really a memorable day.
April 15, 2010 – I am feel really nervous about my research. Nothing is working out the way it should be and the uncertainty is killing me. Whenever I move a step further to prepare for this tedious task, the perplexity of thought and the numerous assumptions push me two steps back. I am so confused about the inquiry itself. Only God can help.
PS: From the day I have changed my web presence from ‘usernames associated to coffee’ to ‘my real name’, I am getting more addicted to coffee and everything caffeine. Such an irony.